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Emily, It’s been a year now…

We still miss Emily as much as when she left us on August 27, 2014; we always will miss her as she was such a great part of our lives. I can’t relive those days and hours in my mind as it’s so very sad. Now it is remembering without the details to make it more bearable.

Yet, there are still times of tears and deep sorrow. Anniversaries are always very sad for my late parents, now for Emily, too. I miss them all so much and wish I could go back in time just for a moment. Looking at Emily’s pictures and videos is easier now as I just think of the moment they were taken and not that she is missing.

I will never “get over” her loss and will hold her in my heart always. Many people never get another dog after losing a dear one or they never get that breed again. That makes things much worse, I think. God gave us Velvet to help us heal and she has. She’s been here 11 months already and we can cope with Emily’s memories better due to her.

We have learned to thank God for his foresight and gifts in Velvet coming here to be with us now and forever. Emily was a most beautiful girl in every way; Velvet is also in her ways very beautiful, too.

When we all meet again in Heaven, we will then have much to tell each other.

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The Gift of Love

Today, April 25th, is our wedding anniversary of 23 years! (It’s also the birthday of my oldest daughter.) We will go out to dinner this weekend and enjoy ourselves…

Today, also, is Glenn’s Gift of Love to Emily-he put her arch up and concrete again at the bottom due to very strong crosswinds in that area. When the brickwork is completed, I will plant Mom’s rose and clematis on one side, and continue fixing the rose garden that I began the other day.

April is both a happy and sad month as Mom passed away April 8, 2011 and Emily’s last photo in the gardens was with Glenn and under the rose arch. We miss then greatly. Now, though, I can walk in that garden and think of them while enjoying God’s flowers. They are in heaven now so we are happy for that.

We are also thankful for 23 years of marriage and looking forward to our 25th! It’s easier now and better than many other times. Glenn continues to give many ‘gifts of love’ to us daily here in taking care of the home and gardens and furkids.

This year we are trying to catch-up and take it easy, too. Dad passed away in July 2007 and it took me 18 months to move on. Then we had construction to 2012, with Mom passing away in 2011. In Oct. 2012 I had a small stroke from all that stress and that took a while to recover. In the summer of 2013, Emily could no longer walk and we got her a cart by Nov. She also almost died from a blockage and a long bought of pneumonia in Feb 2013. Emily passed away in August 2014 and the remainder of the year was filled with grief.

One thing after another and the gardens have not fully been taken care of at times. That is being done this year as much as God will allow us to do. No construction is planned for this year. We plan to just be outside with the furkids, garden, and enjoy ourselves with as little stress as possible.

Emily’s birthday is in May just after Glenn’s. We are hoping for warmer weather and a warm celebration of both of their birthdays.

A Gift of Love given to us by God has increased and multiplied. We pray that it continues for more years to come! Happy Anniversary, Glenn!

Glenn installed Emily's new arch today.

Glenn installed Emily’s new arch today.

Emily’s Garden Arch

We are preparing “Emily’s Garden” Fragrances, Potpourris, Oils, and more Bath and Beauty items. They will be on my website and online store this year. The label looks like this:

The label has Emily walking in her cart and under the Rose arch.

The label has Emily walking in her cart and under the Rose arch.

Emily loved the gardens here and we think of her while walking and working out there. Glenn loved walking her in her cart around the rose and vegetable gardens each day. He took especially good care of her. Even in the snow, he would shovel all the pathways so she could still walk around. It was cute.

I have videos and still pictures of them. One of the photos was taken on Easter in 2014 and under the arch. Glenn loved that one so I have it enlarged and on a canvas photo with 3 others of Emily. I cropped the photo to make the label for Emily’s Garden products. The labels are oil and water resistant and came out well.

Glenn and Emily on Easter in 2014. She loved her walks.

Glenn and Emily on Easter in 2014. She loved her walks.

ALAS! AS Mom would have said, “Nothing lasts forever.” The western cedar arch was recently seen moving in the wind. A check on it showed that it is worse than a year ago.  Glenn took in down the other day. Now Emily’s arch is gone…

Glenn wants it back and misses it after it has been there 18 years. I agree and couldn’t plant the climbing rose bush I got last spring on it. I’ve just ordered an exact copy of the western cedar arch. Some things have to be replaced and others we can leave out when removed. Now, it is even more meaningful to have the rose arch back in.

It will come in about 10 days and will be in Memory of Emily. The rose that I got is in Memory of Mom so that will look good. We have Mom’s clematis from behind her home that she had growing in the climbing rose there. The rose didn’t survive so that was why I got a new one. Now they’ll be growing together again.

There are other memories that we have of Emily in our gardens here. She loved smelling the flowers as I showed her how to do that without tasting them. He favorite places were where she could watch over ‘her kingdom’ and all the other fur kids and keep them in line with a ‘bark, bark’ if needed.

Emily would be right there by Dad at his favorite place under a large, red maple in the back. Sadly, we had to remove that tree due to dangerous large branches. There, too, we had to have a replacement tree so “Dad’s Tree” is now a Japanese red maple. Under that I planted the oriental lilies that he liked.

Emily’s Arch will be put up before her birthday in May. We hope to have that garden fixed up for a photo then. We dearly miss them all. These areas are next to the Memory Garden where Mom’s bench is. Memories give us a smile and sometimes a tear but we are fortunate that we have them.  There’s nothing like a garden to sit in and reflect on the love that we shared.

Emily is in Heaven Four Months Now

It is now easy some days. I think of her sometimes and cry. But the spans between those times are now greater. For Glenn also there are tears at times. We have many photos to see of Emily and that’s good. Many days that we look at them we can smile.
We’ve young Velvet to make us laugh and keep us company with Ginny and Corky. It’s very peaceful here. Thankfulness fills our hearts for these things. They are all happy and fairly healthy, with the older 2 having their arthritis.
Like with humans, the holidays bring back many memories of loved ones. This Christmas was nice but I had a sadness under it all with Emily gone. That also led to me thinking of my late parents… Times are different now.
So it is, that we move on in life. We can help others with our experiences but they alone have to make the choice at the end of their dog’s life. It’s a very personal decision and only they can do that. For us, we’ve made the right choice by letting God take back the life he gave Emily to Himself. But every person has their own beliefs.
As much as I want to comfort the other corgi owners who have lost theirs or are in the midst of making a choice, I can’t do very much now. I can provide a link to this blog but I cannot post to theirs or get into a big conversation about this yet. It is just too heart-wrenching still.
Glenn and I can talk about it to each other but not too much with other people. The hurt is still too raw and we don’t want to detail the end of her life. Still, it’s a new year and we are going on and will be able to discuss it perhaps later.
We will never forget Emily who latched onto our hearts for so many years.

"Where's Daddy?" Emily waited for Daddy to walk her in the cart. She loved it.

“Where’s Daddy?”
Emily waited for Daddy to walk her in the cart. She loved it.

“For I Know I’ll Never Find Another You”

I miss you, my Emily! Nary a day goes by when I don’t think if you in some way. Thoughts of you warm my heart….

From 1968, I was reminded of a song that makes me think how special you are.

For I Know I’ll Never Find Another You

By the Seekers 1968, THEIR LAST SONG AS A GROUP BBC

There’s a new world somewhere
They call the Promised Land
And I’ll be there someday
If you will hold my hand

I still need you there beside me
No matter what I do
For I know I’ll never find another you

There is always someone
For each of us they say
And you’ll be my someone
Forever and a day

I could search the whole world over
Until my life is through
But I know I’ll never find another you

It’s a long long journey
So stay by my side
When I’ll walk through the storm
You’ll be my guide, be my guide

If they gave me a fortune
My pleasure would be small
I could lose it all tomorrow
And never mind at all

But if I should lose your love, dear
I don’t know what I’d do
For I know I’ll never find another you

But if I should lose your love, dear
I don’t know what I’d do
For I know I’ll never find another you
Another you, another you

Emily, a Memorial at the Creek…

I took this picture the last time we were at this launch on July 7, 2014. It was a hot day and the sun was shining along the route. When we returned, Glenn carried her to the shade and loosened her life jacket but she wanted to nap.

Emily napping after our canoe trip July7, 2014

Emily napping after our canoe trip July7, 2014

Today, Oct. 7, 2014, we returned with Velvet, our new Hearing Ear girl, for her first canoe trip. We put the dried rose petals on that spot where Emily was. Just 3 months ago we had Emily there. It doesn’t seem possible.

Today is Oct. 7, 2014. We spread dried rose petals where Emily rested when we were there July 7, 2014

Today is Oct. 7, 2014. We spread dried rose petals where Emily rested when we were there July 7, 2014


I’ll always remember Emily there…

Daddy and I miss you so much, Emily!